Yesterday (August 2) was my birthday. My mom and Nieces are in town and that is amazing all in its own, but the fact that they were here for my birthday just makes everything that much better. I only get to see them once a year, and so though the time is amazing, we are constantly dreading the goodbyes. We had originally planned a birthday party for me, but only 1 person said they could come, and then my family decided to stay one extra night…so I put it off. At this rate, it probably won’t happen at all but it’s okay because my two favorite girls are here, and thats all I need.
On a side note, it amazes me how no matter what, no matter how hard you work, and how much you try some people will never notice or care about you. Not in the way you’d like.
It’s been almost 5 years and for some reason I still strive to make 4 people happy. I try to include them in our lives, we celebrate holidays and birthdays with them, we invite them over for dinner and games and pay for everything… we invite them to do fun activities with us (like canoeing) and yet… they can never take the time out of their “busy” life to invite us to anything, reply to texts or even care about what is going on with us.
I think this is the most awful and most stressful feeling ever. I cannot and will not ever understand how or why you’d be able or want to do that to someone in your family and someone who means the world to them. But I can tell you from this end, I’ve shed far too many tears, I’ve stressed to much and I need to stop.
I would DIE if my family acted like that. I’d call them out, and point out their errors and hypocrisy(did i spell that right?) I would never let them get away with it, but I also know that that would NEVER happen.
I guess the point to that rant was simply to get it off my chest. Sometimes I wish I didn’t care…. sometimes I wish it didn’t matter but it does.
Also, I love having my family here. I have an amazing beautiful and wonderful family. I couldn’t be luckier in that department of my life!